Back again. One of these days I will post more often then every month or so.

Because there is so much going on and I want to write about all of it. Somehow it seems the more that happens, the less that I write. But this needs to change. Especially since Emily is going to move to Paris in a couple of months. I hope this can be a way for her to catch a glimpse of what’s going on in my life.

To be perfectly honest it is not merely laziness that keeps me from writing… I know, you gasp in shock. But it is true! Most of my time has been spent working on the Lord of the Rings role playing game that I got involved with in February. It has been an amazing experience… despite the drama and trauma that afflicts the writers every now and again. I have made some wonderful friends, even without ever having met them. And since the game is like a novel, where each of us write several characters, it has given me a chance to work on my writing. Most of the other writers are *wonderful*, and I love this because it forces me to stretch to keep up with them.

In the world of Family, there has been almost too much going on. It’s been rather draining, and I’ve been avoiding dealing with it. Which is probably another reason I haven’t been writing about it.

My brother - Q, just got his heart broken by his (now) ex-girlfriend. She dumped him about two weeks ago now… without warning, or much explaination. Just, “You want to spend too much time with me”, and that’s it. Yeah, after 5 years, wanting to spend the weekends together is definitely asking too much. Suuuure. Unlike my mom and I, he hadn’t see it coming and he was devistated. I wanted to head to DC and kick her prissy, skinny ass, but Tom convinced me that wouldn’t solve anything. And, since Q still thinks he loves her, I suppose I won’t. Q came out to visit last weekend… we got him drunk, took him out on the town and showed him a good time. And tonight he hit on some girl at a bar, who then expressed interest in him… so he’s got a date tomorrow night. He’s pulling it back together and I’m proud of him.

Selfishly, this break-up was hard on me as well. Though clearly not to anywhere near the same extent, of course. It just brought up unresolved feelings (like anger and disappointment) around when Tom broke up with me. Can you believe I’m still jealous of the chick he hooked up with? I know, four years ago now… get over it! I’m still trying…. sorta.

And the biggest things that are going on in my family… my maternal Grandfather just had to be put into a nursing home. At 72. He has Primary Progressive Aphasia, which is a type of dementia which is diagnosed when no one has a clue what’s wrong. He is nearly unable to communicate and cannot take care of himself. My Grandma had been trying to keep him at home, but the disease was effecting his behavior… and she couldn’t.

So last Thursday she took him to the nursing home… and on Friday she was told that it looks like her breast cancer has returned… but to the other breast. She’s 72 as well… and she’s feeling like this is all too much. She has always been pessimistic, but this has really knocked her down. I know I should call her… but I’ve been feeling depleted lately. Like I can barely scrape up the energy to get up and go to work. I just don’t feel like I have energy to give. But I know she needs me, so I will…

And Father’s Day … with all the Hallmark images of the Perfect Dad tends to beat me over the head until I’m a bloody lump.

That’s the headlines. I promise not to disappear for a month again (at least for a while)… and I’ll write more about all this stuff. Emily… I’ll miss you!

all writing � Kat 2002,2003

Posted on June 25th, 2003 by Kat
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